Spirit If.

-Yes, I have my hands on the new Kevin Drew (from Broken Social Scene) album. Sounds like broken social scene. Anyways, I thought I post an update on the status of my 'puter. In providing great service, I received a phone call around 7 tonight saying my computer was ready to be picked. One day. Nice. So my pretty computer is back in my possession with all usb ports working as well as the lack of a rattling fan.
-I think this is my new favorite blog: Ugly Outfits NYC. and this post nails it.

My Negligence Towards the Blog

-I haven't posted anything in a while. Not sure why. I suppose I have been waiting for something to actually happen around here, yet nothing has. At least not for me. Mike started working the Target and Julianne at JC Penny, so thats cool..well for Julianne. Mike is still searching for a real job because target isn't cutting it (creatively and financially) so if anyone hears of any decent job openings, let one of us know.
-My work is been a bit of a drag as well. The load of travel guide and oklahoma today has piled up. I'm sure I'm not being as productive as I need to be and my boss has probably ten times the load as me. So I shouldn't be complaining too much. I just seem to be struggling with designing stuff For Oklahoma. It kind of makes me wonder what I want to do with my work, etc. I'm not sure what I want to do. I'm ready for the next step, something. But then again, I don't think I'm ready, leaving the comfort of my own office and the laid backness of my work. I know once I leave, I'll miss it. I don't know what I'm doing anymore. I kind of feel the need to leave this state and start my own adventure. But I don't think I can fly solo. that'll just lead me to freaking out and getting depressed I'm sure. I like the idea of moving to a new environment, but I just don't think I can cut it by myself-not knowing where anything is at, and not having any friends. So as far as careers go, I'm clueless.
-the avantcore has been delayed due to clint's prior jobs and family vacation, so maybe an update to that will come next month. seems like all of my projects end up doing that, doesn't it. in other news, my mac is in the shop due to USB failure and fan being blown. so I'm running my old PC right now. As much as I hate the thing, I'm surprised it's still running. 5 years and still functioning. barely.
-I think I'll try to be posting some links this week when I find some. I have been kind of slacking on that one.

One Minute

-I've come to the conclusion I need a new hobby. No one seems to be online when I am, and I seem to be filtering through my usual bookmarks pretty quickly these days. any suggestions?

Your New Aesthetic

-Work is on the verge of getting insane, with the workload. and here I am, making a post. not much is new on my side. Just work and such. Last weekend, the family crammed into my mom's camry and visit our grandparents, aunt and uncle and cousin. It was alright. quite a culture clash: our family with all our gadgets (ipods, computer, portable dvd player, etc) and them, with their motorcycles, 4 wheelers, and other various mechancial junk they have. But it was good seeing them, just for the fact that they're family.
-On the sidenote, these guys are our new neighbors at work. I've heard them playing (through the walls) a couple times. nothing too great, but not bad.
-Clint, Mike, and I are in the process of starting avantcore.com. more news to come. the logo can be viewed on my flickr. it will primarily be a design blog, with the possibility of other postings/links.
-Pepperoni spaghetti will be had, at the house of the Brothers Lee. you will be missing out. it's going to be bomb.

Skies Open.

-Today, the family is embarking on a trip to SW MO to visit our grandparents for the weekend. It should be interesting considering the whole family hasn't been in a car together in quite some time. According to mike, the last time we went on a road trip, we had the van. That was a long time ago.
-I have a few side projects developing. I'm not sure if any of them will get too far: a zine with amy and mike, design blog with mike and clint, and possibly a review site of my own. I'll be gone this weekend, so I won't be online. They don't believe in technology. I'll be back next week.

Under the Bridge

-Can't say I'm feeling too much better. Sunday was better. Hung out with shannon, ended up having a small gathering over at his place for some burgers with some Office and guitar hero. Went back to work today. and it was quite a slow moving day. This month is just going to dry me up. Working extensively on Travel Guide layouts, mostly working on the tedious things. Probably won't be working on any actualy Design work the rest of the month. That's work though.
-In other news, I had the most akward and uncomfortable situation. I figure I'll post it, because you'll find out someway (Mike). We went to Walgreen's tonight for a soda run (anne wanted some grape soda for some reason). When we were checking out, the cashier was totally coming onto me. As soon as I got closer, he was just staring the whole time. He was like, "Hi! I'm Leon, nice to meet you." Yes, you heard me right Leon, an asian guy named Leon. I gave him the "hey" but he kept trying to strike something up; at this point I just felt really akward so I was trying to ignore him. He apparently thought I didn't understand him, but he later said, "hablo espanol." I'm sure he said other things, I just wanted to get out. So I can't get any ladies, but apparently the gay asian men fancy me. So what does this mean? either, A) I look gay B) I'm just a good looking dude, or C)I look like a 13 year old Mexican (as told by mike). Horrible. That whole circumstance somehow just made me feel like crap, and took a blow to my manhood.
-I was serious about Movie night. I'm thinking High Fidelity at the end of the month. any takers?

Walking on Stones.

-This week has been somewhat of a rollercoaster. and I don't really mean that in a good way. I'm not going to fill this entry with links. Maybe next week. Thought I would try to sqeeze out actualy updates. but well, I don't know any, and that in itself kind of frustrates me.
-I've been feeling stuck lately: emotionally, physically, financially, environmentally, creatively, musically, and so on. I'm not really sure how to explain it all. but it feels quite heavy. Just that feeling everyone else is doing things, going places, experiencing new things, meeting new people, buying cool things, going through life like you should. and What am I doing? What am I doing? Same thing I do everyday, sit in front of this screen, in some false hope that something is just going to pop and things are going to be pleasant and just right.
-Sure, I've had some quite enjoyable moments this week: the 4th, seeing my family, seeing good friends. but its so quick to even itself out with frustrating matters. I guess I want things to run a lot smoother and its not and realizing it never will has kind of slapped me in the face. Just having some internal issues, so if I seem irritable the next few days/weeks/months. That's why. I don't really feel the need to elaborate. Just saying, I'm feeling a bit stuck and needing to get out of this. enough of that.
-In other news, after quite a discussion of movies the other day, Mike and I have decided to start a movie night, this sounds like a cool idea, but I feel it will easily die with everyone's conflicting schedules. It will probably run every couple/few weeks and be watching what we deem classic movies along with some themes (as discussed with bear, lindsay, jeremy, and dayna). I'm going to try to type out a list and Kind of getting an idea of what movies we'll be viewing first. I just wanted to see what days people think would be good to get together to watch a movie, if you're interested. To give you an idea of some of the movies: Flight of the Navigator, Legends of the Fall, Chitty Chitty Bang Bang (Can you believe people haven't seen this? geez, its like never seeing mary poppins), Batteries Not Included, Ghost Dad, The Jerk, and the list goes on. Feedback is appreciated.
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