The More Things Change, The More They Stay The Same
-It seems everyone is embarking on new adventures, mostly in the marital sense and/or popping out babies. And my adventures....are just beginning. I can't even imagine what it's like at that stage of life, nor do I want to think about it.....It's been 2.5 months since we left the desolate lands of Oklahoma - free of the bible belt, wind, 90+ degree weather, and who knows what else...and not much has changed in that time. I'm still struggling in the job category, as it seems the task is much more difficult than I imagined. It isn't the only thing that I've been dealing with. Living in a very tight space with a family that opened their space to us, yet there is still a level of uncomfortability to me. I feel the weight coming down on me. I'm slowly coming to terms of stepping out (even more) of my comfort zone, but everyday has been a struggle to get out of bed.
-I'm anxiously awaiting a time when I'll have my own space back, and I won't have to go searching through a labyrinth of boxes to find the simpliest of things (as 75% of our stuff is still in boxes). I am grateful for what I have now, but there are certain elements to my life that are really starting to close in on me. I will spare you the details, as even this brief synopsis is a bit far for the general public.
-These factors will eventually rise and I can move on to figuring out other problems in my life, but it's not easy. It's never easy. This jobless time hasn't been totally useless, as it seems I have been able to explore and develop other projects I've been wanting to work on (avantcore, ie cards, etc). I have also been in the dark about another project that I will be producing, but trying to work out a lot of issues with it (as with everything else, nothing is easy) before I actually release it into the wild.
-Along with everything else, I've been in huge debate over my decisions on what to do this coming holiday season. As it seems, I am not employed, the idea of coming home (Oklahoma) is not too far fetched (despite the costs). But I'm quite concerned if I get offered a job before then, the fact I will not be here for a few days might effect that outcome. A bit of a catch 22.
Nothing seems to have a clear answer right now.
-I'm anxiously awaiting a time when I'll have my own space back, and I won't have to go searching through a labyrinth of boxes to find the simpliest of things (as 75% of our stuff is still in boxes). I am grateful for what I have now, but there are certain elements to my life that are really starting to close in on me. I will spare you the details, as even this brief synopsis is a bit far for the general public.
-These factors will eventually rise and I can move on to figuring out other problems in my life, but it's not easy. It's never easy. This jobless time hasn't been totally useless, as it seems I have been able to explore and develop other projects I've been wanting to work on (avantcore, ie cards, etc). I have also been in the dark about another project that I will be producing, but trying to work out a lot of issues with it (as with everything else, nothing is easy) before I actually release it into the wild.
-Along with everything else, I've been in huge debate over my decisions on what to do this coming holiday season. As it seems, I am not employed, the idea of coming home (Oklahoma) is not too far fetched (despite the costs). But I'm quite concerned if I get offered a job before then, the fact I will not be here for a few days might effect that outcome. A bit of a catch 22.
Nothing seems to have a clear answer right now.
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